I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SHUT THE DORDT PROMPT OFF!! ANYONE???

17 May

I'm in Ontario now. New Market. I might see Dee this weekend, if I can work something out transportation wise.
I just saw Prince Caspian last night. It was better than the first of the series, in my opinion. But I also like the book of Prince Caspian better than The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. Anyway, I also got roped into going to a Hillside concert (I'm not sure when that is).
I've been reading All Quiet on the Westsern Front. Yikes! I found it, along with several other books I want to read, in a box of books Amanda left by accident in the brick house. Or I left? Anyway, it's hers, but I'm borrowing it. And you don't get a choice, Amanda! So when I finish that, and the others, I'll send those to you as well. (I found my Pride and Prejudice book in there as well, but I already bought a new one so you can have it.) I like reading. I don't do enough of it at Dordt. So hopefully this summer I can cut into my list a bit.
Juno is on tv. Going to watch.
TTFN

Happy Mother's Day

I just got the Dordt sign in thing on my own blog. Strange. How do I make it stop??

I forgot how long a drive can seem when you don't have control over the radio... and when Mom does. I forgot how much Mom likes her radio talk shows and AM stations and Christian contemporary music. I forgot how much little girls fight. I forgot the stupid things they fight about! I forgot how patient Dad is and how generous both Mom and Dad are.
It's good to be back with family. :)

How's Sioux Center? and everywhere else?

doin just fine

Two wonderful concerts.
Five new cds, including the Cotton Bonnets' (aka the Peasants) new EP, which you should all get!!
Good stuff.
Great weekend. :)

blonde moments...

Monday I misunderstood my prof about the contents of our next quiz. I relayed this wrong info to Skip. Oops.
I forgot my 11am class was canceled today so I went anyway. Shoot.
I skipped math on Monday so I didn't know everything that was on our noon test today. Shit.
I got out of my math test a few minutes late and ran to the Bean hoping no one was waiting. No one came in for the first half hour. Then Shaftstall came in, made himself comfortable, a little small talk, and then he said "Carmela, don't you guys open at 2?"
- "yes".
- "it's 1.40."
- "Shit! I'm supposed to be in class right now!" - Oh well.

don't worry

49mph winds + sun = feels like the beach! I love it and yet it makes me nostalgic. I miss the ocean sometimes. Amanda, you know that place in Cancun where Mom and Dad would bring us to play on the beach but we weren't usually allowed in the water because it was too rough and had an undertow? I want to go there again and walk on the beach and keep walking until the end of the Zona Hotelera.
Today was a good day. I went for a walk, hung out on the grass with Skip and Alex listening to Radiohead, and later I played hacky sack with a bunch of okay people. ;)
Today Dordt had a cultural fair. Great food. Fun dancing. Even some reggae, thanks to Ephron.
Going to bed soon. Sleep tight.

It's not going to stop

Yesterday a good friend of mine was overwhelmed by the brokenness of our world. Very much so. And I can relate somewhat. I've had days like that where I'll see pain, broken hearts, broken souls, broken relationships, corrupted politics, corrupted churches, money-greedy business, money-greedy institutions, money-greedy schools, polluted air, polluted water, polluted earth, overused earth, abused nature, hunger, sickness, death. It really is overwhelming. It really does make me want to cry. I want to mourn the loss of the perfection in God's creation; the loss of what was good.
I think it's okay to feel that from time to time. It is good. If we were happy with how things are, we wouldn't try so hard to make it better. If we were content with the world as it is now, we wouldn't eagerly anticipate Christ's next coming. Sometimes we need to see how broken the world is to move us to action. It's like a big kick in the ass. We just need to be careful to not let this despair take over and cause us to give up.
We need to keep our eyes open to see the good that is still around us. There are people caring for each other - lending you their class notes when you skip, stopping and waiting so they can open the door for you, sharing their hooka, carrying things for you because their bike has a basket and yours doesn't, buying you tacos, giving you granola, getting up super early to see you off... There are people caring for the environment - biking, not littering, using natural products, recycling, reusing, composting, gardening... There is so much love and beauty all around us in creation - flowers growing, trees budding, birds singing, the sun shining - in art - music, films, photos...(an endless list!) - and in creatures, including human beings - children laughing, giggling, crying, hugging... Not everything is corrupt and hopeless. Even in all this brokenness there is good!
I don't really know where I'm going with this. I guess I just want to say that I can relate to your overwhelming feelings, my friend, and though I'm sorry it hurts so much, I think you see the beauty and love and hope too.

what do I know?

Laura slapped me in the face today. I was asking for it.
I just listened to Wilco's "The lonely 1" and once again really enjoyed it.

Some things I've been wondering as of always...
Some things are better left unsaid, right?. But some aren't, so how does one tell the difference?
Some things are best not talked about. But some aren't. Same question.
I hold a lot of things in (may not seem like it because I talk a lot). Maybe I shouldn't. But how do I know... And then there's other things I probably shouldn't say, but I do. It bugs me. Trying to find this balance between talking too much and talking to little, or sharing too much and sharing too little. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But maybe not. How do I know.

It might snow tomorrow.

and some pictures

Finally got my pictures off the camera. :)
Not sure what they're all about though... seriously.








Phil and his best buys!








And pre-80's Dance!! Heck ya, I went!!