na na na na. na na na na.

I was talking to my roommate today in the TV room and this commercial came on. The commercial goes something like this - there's a guy who sees a spider and gets it to crawl onto a paper or something and he releases it outside. There is another bug that he also lets go free or something. Then he grabs a kleenex and blows his nose as the narrator says something about the kleenex killing up to 90-some% of germs and the guy kinda stops what he's doing for a sec, then sorta shrugs it off as narrator says thank heavens for forgiveness, thank heavens there's this brand of kleenex... (I forget the brand and the exact words, but you get the picture..) Anyway, so I see this and say to Rachel "Thank heavens for forgiveness? what does that have to do with anything?" I was thinking this commercial is stupid and doesn't make sense. Then Rachel (who's a major is ag-missions) explains to me about some religion that believes killing anything is wrong and will even filter water so as not to drink anything living, etc... And still I'm thinking, so what's the connection? And then "click" - I get it. The germs. Kleenex KILLS the germs. Need forgiveness! and all of a sudden this "stupid" add becomes genius.
So now that I feel like an idiot, I shall do some boasting to gratify my ego. I have a theology test tomorrow so I went to my prof today to ask a few questions and organize some thoughts. One of the first things my prof said to me when I walked in was that he liked my reading-responses. Then he asked what my major was, and then he tried to convince me to be a theology major, or at least a minor, but finally settled on "at least take some more theology classes" and he hauled out his catalog and looked through to find some missions related courses (since I'd expressed interest in missions). Though I have no intention of being a theology major/minor, I must say I am extremely flattered that this particular prof was trying to persuade me to do so.

Okay, so really perhaps writing this is an arrogant thing to do, but I was just really excited to hear this because I do sort of struggle with self-confidence a bit - as in not always having enough. So I need to be reassured at times that in some way or other I am special or smart or have done something worth doing or thought something worth thinking - not just from biased people like family or even friends, but from someone who has a not-so-personal relationship with me and speaks just from "evidence" or concrete things... you know?
I'm out.

Peace.

iiiiii don't wanna work.

Talk about a week full of surprises. First, surprise! - I forgot to work in the bean in the afternoon (pulls at shirt collar) so I worked a while in the evening instead. Karaoke was going on outside... it was great.. riiiight. Then at some point I looked up from making a drink and out of the corner of my eye I saw someone and thought to myself, "wow, she looks like Ann Andree. And then I looked again and was like, "IT IS ANN ANDREE!" It was great to see you again, Ann! Laura too! And deGroot came out the saturday before and stayed a whole week. Twas a great week/weekend full of awsome people.
Brielle, I miss your costume parties. I dressed up yesterday (I was the monopoly guy but everyone thought I was some old actor named Charlie someone or other) and went to doc's. There was a dance in the back, but I just sat in the front with a bunch of friends and observed all the crazy, good, stupid, or slutty costumes. It just didn't compare to costume parties with good food and good drinks and good people with good costumes.
anyway, I got a phone call sometime yesterday from my grandma saying she and gramps were taking a trailer from Indiana to South Dakota and wanted to stop by!! So today I went out to eath with them and then we went hot tubbing for half an hour because Gramps has a cold and his voice left nearly left him and Grams thinks hot tubbing will help. Gramps started telling me how after he graduated from college, he couldn't go to grad school right away so he got drafted. In his hoarse voice he told me that in the morning they had to do a role call and if the boys didn't answer loud enough his drill sargent would yell "Say it like you got a pair!" and Grandpa turned all red and Grams made sure she pointed it out. :) They are so cute! I'm glad they came by.

I'm going on NSPICE, baby, yeah!!!

good night, dear void.

This week has probably been the worst of the semester. I worked the overnight Sunday so I started off being tired and not feeling caught up on homework. Then I had three tests, which oddly enough, the one that I studied least for seemed to go the best, and the one I studied most for went the worst. (Should I quit studying?) And then I had to say goodbye sort of unexpectedly to a good friend. And I started (again) thinking of all the people I miss and have not seen in months or years. Saturday I have to work at 8:20 am. :(

But there have been and will be some positive things as well.
I've recently been introduced to Rufus Wainwright. I like him. And I like friends who introduce me to good music. My favorite songs of his? - Beauty Mark and Matinee Idol.
Also, deGroot is coming saturday. HOORAY! Anyone interested in going to Sioux Falls on saturday night to pick him up and hang out?
I think my room had a bit of a break through today. We had a nice long chat about unimportant things and important things. Not like conflict resolution or anything, because there isn't much conflict, but just a heart-to-heartish type chat that made me, at least, feel closer to everyone. Twas nice.
I'm eating Dove's unconditional chocolate ice cream!
And hey, I'm twenty one. ;)

This one is for Amanda

I forgot about this until I read your blog and you asked if you are the only one with so many spider experiences...

After my first shift at the bean on Tuesday I went out to my bike (or actually Dane's bike...) and started unlocking it. After wrapping my arms under and around the handels to get to the lock, I realized I had just put my arms and almost my face in a mass of spider webs full of little baby spiders! My first thought was "sick!" but my second was "I wish Amanda was me right now, and I was watching from a couple feet away." I shuddered, finished unlocking the bike while trying to keep my face a safe distance away, and started going home. I pretended I didn't care about the little spiders, squishing the ones I saw on my arms, but as I kept biking I saw three, then four, spiders dangling from the handlebars. The wind was blowing them towards me. So I got off the bike by the BJ and grabbed a long wood chip/strip using it to wipe up the remainder of the web and hopefully the little spiders with it. I found more web by the chain, under the seat, in the tires... The whole bike was basically one giant mass of spider web with itsy bitsy spiders everywhere! I was a bit grossed out, but after wiping up what I could see, I got back on the bike and rode to a Canadian Thanksgiving dinner at A2. Who knows, I may have eaten a spider or two...

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth

I've never been so obsessed and only once been so moved by a song as I have been lately by Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap. I've never had a favorite song until now. This has got to be the most lovely song I ever heard! I listened to it at least 10 times yesterday and 5 more today.
I talked to Amanda and my younger sister Yolanda this week and I've never missed them more.
The RA class (which is in the bean every tuesday when I work) was talking about illegal hispanic imigrants and I've never been pissed off more. Well, maybe thats not true, but hearing certain opinions was pretty upsetting. Sometimes I wish I didn't know what some people really think.
Last night was one of the worst sleeps ever. I think I layed in bed around two hours or longer before actually falling asleep. My mind just wouldn't shut up!
I've been realizing more and more how guarded I am. My most honest moments seem to be when I've had a few to drink...

(My posts lately seem to be random thoughts that don't tie together. oh well.)

time's just gonna change itself around

Amanda called today!
I'm listening to zero 7 right now and loving it.
Rainy days are great. (Just not too many in a row.)
The back of my hair needs cutting. It's growing into a mullet. :S
Ross should go on NSPICE.

I don't have to speak

Breaks are great.
Birthdays are great.
Parties are great.
This weekend was great.

neverland

Yesterday I went ice skating with Rose, Sabina (I don't know how it's spelled), and Inge Henderson. It was fun.
Today my arms are sore from holding Rose up while skating.
I went to the Henderson's house today to play dutch memory. Rose and Sabine traced my hands on paper and then drew rings and bracelets on them. I hung these on my fridge. Rose said I am her favorite babysitter, but I am only the second favorite of Sabinuh. ;) Then we walked to campus and I showed them my apartment. (and I walked in on Raquel making me surprise cupcakes for my birthday - oops!) Then I walked them home. In their yard they decided they needed to burry me in their pile of leaves. Sabeena said to lay still and when Inge was right next to her she would say go and then I was to jump up and scare her. So they called Inge out and asked her where I was and she played along and looked for me. Then Subeena said "GO" and I jumped and "scared" Inge! I miss being little. I love those girls!